I don't know why I bother making new years resolutions anymore. Last year, it was breaking free and being less emotionally attached.

Unfortunately, even after reducing them from about a million to a good number of 2, I still didn't manage to keep them. Same old cycles, same old being so god damn easy it annoys me so much. I don't know if they count anymore if you're just making the same resolutions every year, but at least I feel better about myself thinking that I've made an effort to try and change these things.

I guess if there's anything I need to change this year, is that I need to start discovering the bigger picture. I need to realise that some things are actually out of the control of anyone. I need to stop trying to blame (or fix) the source of those flaws and just accept that everyone's done all they could out of the situation. We're only just human beings, and some times, the way it is is just the way it is. Bad timing, bad luck, whatever you call it, nobody could've avoided it. So, chuck those "what-if"s in the bin, and get along with your life.

Hello 2011. And as expected, every year I get less optimistic about things. Its called growing up.