To be fair, I don't really have a say, I never have. Either ways, I lose. What's the point of planning strategy to a losing battle?

I've been stalling for a while now, plainly just sucking it up and covering oneboth eyes, counting down the days I would have to go by dodging those questionings and interrogation. I guess my best bet is just to keep my distance for as long as I can.

From that, I just feel exhausted, having no one relevant to seek advice from, plainly because I can't put the situation out in facts and words well enough to explain to someone else let alone to weigh its pros and cons. I'm just as confused as a cow staring at a nuclear explosion.

4 days till the hectic schedule starts again. Balancing social life, a career path, academic performance, physical fitness, my passions (dance and music), isn't quite as difficult and mind numbing as where I stand now.

Of course I do complain, sometimes I wish I could go on a week whine-detox and completely rid of my nagging and moodswings annoying various people.

On a brighter note,

fuck it. I don't have any bright notes to sing about melodiously today.

China photos will have to wait.