I still don't understand how a person could cut someone that he/she spent everysingle day with just like that. It's like losing a limb. Do you feel disabled somehow,when you do that? Is it possible to simply amputate a part of yourself and not feel it hurt at all?
Honestly, I could shamefully admit that I've done horrible things like that, but only to a certain extent, and for the right reasons. And I do make my reasons clear, knowing if I don't explain myself things will hurt badly on the other end.
But how do you wake up one day and decide that, you don't care anymore? Simply, just flick your mind to a different channel, put things in a box and pack them away.
I've always admired people who are able to "partition" their minds (abstract maths talking lol), concentrate on things that they are doing, even if that means all attempts to multitask fails.
I guess thats why boys are less emotional. They can partition the things in their head, like when a football game is on then everything other than the "sports zone" is braindead.
Us ladies can multitask but are we just as focused?
I feel like I'm just distracted all the time. One way or the other, while doing Maths problems I'm distracting myself from PMS-ing, while listening to music I'm sort of half listening but still doing maths, and then playing pocket god/taptap on my phone in the library a distraction from work altogether.
Still in the midst of all those, occasionally I get a soft spot of failed determination, and some part of a heartache seep in.
Failure.
Sigh.
Need to get focused, and get work done.
Lin crashed
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