You know whats best?
haagen dazs Baileys ice cream.
on 20% off in harrod's!!!
tell me isn't that breakfast lunch and supper everyday????
who cares if i'm not allowed to drink lah! its EATING ok?Labels: Travel
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@ 8:17 PM | Permalink |
I'm extremely grateful to have a friend who would try her best to snap me out of falling into a infinitely deep hole of darkness - to lose hope.
I remember when i was in 1st form, i picked up this random essay that my brother wrote for his english exam, "tomorrow". I've never knew that this person who used to beat me up, tease me and make me feel bad, would actually come up with such philosophical thoughts to put in his essay, and it told me something about hope. About the hope that make us go through everyday, for the people deprived from food and necessities in Africa, for students like us to meeting deadlines after deadlines, for single mothers that have to take up multiple jobs to support a broken family.
It all comes down to something, we all need hope.
Sitting in burning the midnight oil for an exam tomorrow, it's not just so you won't get beaten up by your parents for streaming a red sea on your report card. Somewhere deep inside, I don't know about you, but for me, i hope for some acknowledgement, and hope that my own expectations for myself can be met.
What is the world without tomorrow? what is the world without hope? Every single day, things that we do, that we don't even notice, every effort that we put in, what is that for?
I often live my own world in my head, plan things out in that little brain of mine. But things don't always work out. And lately, things really haven't been working out. Call me a pessimist, but really, you can say that it's really just tiny ant bites compared to whatever whatever disaster happening here and there, but lately i just can't find enough space in my mind the cram and process the load putten on my shoulders. and it's things that i cannot fix that bugs me. Things that happened because it had to, that i had no control of. and slowly, bit by bit it was eating into me, my hope, my tomorrow.
What i wasn't aware of is how easily i can just get so absorbed into the bad things, affecting many other things that i still am capable of fixing, of making better. Dwelling in the past too damn much, I've realised that it's been what i've always been doing, all the time, and that needs to stop. I'm not saying its easy to move on, but i will definitely give it more than just ONE shot.
Sometimes the going gets tough, wail, scream, wallow and whine, time still ticks away, and there isnt a Hiro Nakashima in the real world to help you with that.
ps: Sorry bout the lengthy philosophical rubbish, the sun got into my brain, and burnt my shoulders. (been out in the garden studying all morning. summerrrrrr dayyysss~~)
and also, it was my last day at CA today, and the rancous, aggresive, irritating kids just suddenly hit me with a pang of sweetness, and made me feel something that I havent been doing enough of.
I can almst hear Emily's pillow singing away "always look on the briiiight side...... of life!"
actually scratch that, it's already IN my headLabels: Heart to heart
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@ 10:45 PM | Permalink |
Cut you guys some slack la. I admit it la, Core 1 &2 is really not baby math. I mean, i just realised it yesterrday when i finally got hold of someone's text book lying around in the house. It really didn't look that scary, but it was SCARILY THICK WEH. and i didnt realise it until the night before this stupid "baby exam" as i call it. I eat my words la. i fking panicked like nobody's business. It's really not that easy. I mean, if i hadn't stayed up till 12+ studying, i wouldnt have even gotten an A. But quite worth it la, just alot of learning to do, and once u get it, u get it. It's not easy, but compared to Core 3 &4 (u single math people doing it next year hahaha good luck) and Further pure(FP)1, FP2, FP3. Core 1 & 2 is seriously baby.
But yeah, seriously, i'm quite glad i did FINALLY put some last minute effort in it, because i hell need my C1,2 marks to cover up my -going to fail- Fp1,2,3.
Also, I'm bloody scared already now that i look at my timetable abit more closely and realise there's only A WEEK left to that bloody hell of a week i'm having with all my exams crammed into it every single day. 11 exams weh, out of the 17 i'm taking this term. 11 in ONE week. Mech 1 &2 , Stats 1 &2, Physics 1,2 &3, chemistry 1,2 &3 and econs. Of which, chemistry 1 and physics 1 i've NEVER in my life done before. and its ONE WEEK AWAY. omggggooodnessssss and i'm still on ebay what am i doing on ebay???????
3 down 14 to go!!!! such. a. pain.
Ps: was international fair yesterday, will get hold of the pics and post. was really good fun.Labels: Randoms, Ranting
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@ 4:52 PM | Permalink |
Yesterday, i happily dedicated my time to you blog readers, and posted something in french. well, at least, attempted to. And then, this stupid internet server decides that theh should block my blog. Didnt work :( sorry guys, so what's next best?
I ended up playing minesweeper the whole night, after giving up on doing Core 1 & 2 math - baby math. It bored the juice out of my brain. Seriously, it's like form 3 math only.
So yeah, it's quite an achievement i think, especially playing using some lousy laptop touch pad. that if u accidentally bump in to it a little then it will open a mine and bomb you.
So yeah this is one of the 3 games that i wont, out of 100.
and my attempt to play "expert".
i swear that was one of those bombing accident again!
roar damn addictive!!!!!Labels: Randoms
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@ 3:15 PM | Permalink |
Hello bodies!
I just messed up my chemistry practical exam! ha. ha. ha. no, i didnt break anything (so proud of myself) but right.... i didnt know what colour the stupidi metilbiru indicator is supposed to turn in to when its neutral, or acid. so right, i just simply hentam. lol!!!
Looks like someone have to take again next year lah! whateverrrrrrrr man........
So over already. i want to play tennis nobody play with me >.<
how??????Labels: Randoms
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@ 4:11 PM | Permalink |
My first RocSoc. was "okay-okay" only lah, was supposed to suck because no one was going, but it wasnt exactly absolutely NO ONE. and the last band was amazing, the same one that rocked guitar madness last term. But other than that, the songs were even more rubbish than those played on radio1. bugger. but that's about how great oundle's social life gets.
Theme: Around the world.
I planned to go "egyptian/greek" or something, until Leena stole my outfit.
So i was like. wtf, i am from around the world damnit. i'm from freaking malaysia do i need to dress around the world???
As to compensating the there lack of pictures, I present you:
2 malaysians absolutely flunking the theme
and leena being egyptian/greek - outfit pulled together by myself, and claire wearing my skirt as a top. I know you sure hell didnt notice that eh? ;p
oh and i like this pic:
roar.
ps: that's my mama's belt. lol. cool eh?Labels: Daily Logs and happenings
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@ 1:22 PM | Permalink |
You know, yesterday, i was having a stats 1 mock exam in less than 24 hours (actually less than that as well, because we sure well know we can't study during lessons) and i have not a clue what a stem leaf diagram is, let alone regression line. It's a miracle that i managed to eat the whole text book, in that short period of hell session, thanks to leon and mr. G.
and it turned out to be - SO EASY CAN JUMP OF THE CLIFF.COM!!!!!!
Okay, so maybe i did put abit too much hard effort in it burning midnight oil and totally dozing off during econs. but hey...
Anyway, right now, i'm having a Mech 1 mock exam(which i also missed the whole syllabus that was taught in sept term) in less than 12 hours and guess what. Leon is not here and neither is Mr. G.
I'm still sitting here typing this.
This is gay man................... so gay............................
I want to be RELAKS and not revise and just hand in a blank paper.
WHY CAN'T I JUST DO THAT? it's SO much EASIER right????Labels: Randoms
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@ 10:57 PM | Permalink |
Hello peopleeeee
I've got skype now :D tehyihlin. add me :D and skype me! mic all good and working already
yayLabels: Randoms
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@ 6:34 PM | Permalink |
2 months ago, I met this guy. He IS (note the present tense) absolutely amazing. He genuinely cared. He had patience of an angel, and he never, stopped being nice. He tries so hard to get me look at the bright side, to see how some things are not worth stressing over, because, life likes that. Walk through it enjoying the breeze, or try really hard going against the wind. Some things just work themselves out, if it was meant to be.
But he had a limit, way more than a normal person would be willing to take. But when i got to know a person well, I tend to whine alot, complain alot, and wallow in self pity abit too damn much. It's a pain. Even so, he never told that to my face. Instead, he tried to make himself look like a jerk.
The world used to revolve around me, everything that didn't go my way made me upset, mad, angry, frustrated. Every bumpy edge that came along, i turned into a loophole, assuming that noone ever understands, very dumb-blond-teenage-kid thinking, that not one single person in this world would ever actually go through such "agony" i was living the hell of.
Things change, you look back, and what you have becomes what you've lost. I've lost this guy, that i never had, however ironic that sounds. I had getting-over-it issues, i dwelled upon it like a sad pathetic loser. when he said "Face it, I'm just not the right guy for you.", i knew, no matter what i did, it'll never change his decision about things. that sucks, because heck! thing's aren't going my way again!
Yesterday, if you were to ask me, "would you rather him continue lying to you?" I'd say yes, and it's only now that i realise is such a selfish answer. It's now, that i realise, the whole world doesn't revolve around me. Things didn't work out, because i was too self-absorbed, because i never listened. And yeah, maybe he's just "not the right guy" for me. Or maybe he might be. But that's irrelevant, because I surely am not the right person for him. Before this, it didn't matter, as long as I've got whatever i want, everything is perfect. But it takes 2 hands to clap, I definitely am not capable of giving him what he needs anything at all. and he of all people, do not deserve to be put in this situation.
Took me just abit too long to snap out of it.Labels: Heart to heart
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@ 9:02 PM | Permalink |
I don't love you - My chemical romance
Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way
And after all this time that you still owe
You're still the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can
When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"
Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay
And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whooa
When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"
Well come on, come on
When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"
I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday
I don't love you
Like I loved you
YesterdayLabels: Heart to heart, Randoms
Lin crashed
@ 2:13 PM | Permalink |
Tennis does amazing things.
1, it makes u feel less guilty about having down a whole basket of cheesy-chips down and tavern
2, white tennis skirts look amazing on ANYONE, even if you have vasculytis (like me), no one ever notices the spots.
3, it relieves stress.
4, it makes u really tired... well, at least after doing 3and a half hours of non stop, i BET you are going to be REALLY REALLY tired.
I'm so glad that i'm back playing tennis, that the doctors gave me permission to play it. Beyond glad. Now? I'm just tired. Which is a good thing, because i'm not all sad and pathetic anymore
Ps: i love you, mel!Labels: Randoms
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@ 10:37 PM | Permalink |
Sorry baby, i know you're hot and all, but my "boyfriend" dumped me and i can't do math anymore. :(Labels: Randoms, Ranting
Lin crashed
@ 10:37 AM | Permalink |
What is she thinking? messing with my boyfriend?
Stephen Coletti is mine u pathetic sad case of an "invincible"Labels: Randoms, Ranting
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@ 10:37 AM | Permalink |
Some pictures from my phone
Cousins, never fail to make my day
Claire chillin in the sun @ the garden
Leena's hair, extravagant. she's german u see.
Bryony on the left
Chapel with snow, last term
Band named Unkle Bob @ 6th form club
Look! Me. hairLabels: Daily Logs and happenings, Randoms
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@ 6:49 PM | Permalink |
